tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79861699919631405.post9004470248945334970..comments2023-04-27T07:10:29.869-04:00Comments on Bipolar and the City: Missing a certain kind of communityJean Greyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13826037279061710386noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79861699919631405.post-43503406258084098762013-12-29T20:49:57.718-05:002013-12-29T20:49:57.718-05:00I really owe you a thank you. I sometimes am used ...I really owe you a thank you. I sometimes am used to what I can do now and I forget how much different that is than what I used to be able to do. What you wrote reminded me of what that fight was like and how it was often so much a fight for everything: to be awake enough for a safe commute, to get paperwork done, to remember all the patients I was supervising, to behave appropriately, to control the paranoia, and to just have to THINK constantly to be able to do what should have been second nature. Every time I remember the last Medicare change I endured and how incredibly difficult that was I know how much I functioned on constant cognition and that's exhausting and it is no wonder it causes cyling.<br /><br />Even now that happens, just with lower level tasks. I made myself laugh the other day. I need to have ankle reconstruction done and given the increasing tightness in my Achilles I'm guessing fairly soon. I want to do home health for therapy to avoid co-pays. I started to email a former co-worker to verify that I'd be homebound. When I wrote out the description of entrance/exit to my home combined with barely leaving home because of psych it is pretty clear I could get homebound psych services now if I wanted and will easily be homebound after the surgery, whenever it is (fall I hope).<br /><br />I hope the weekend was restful.Just Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01085642883987294862noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79861699919631405.post-90990318443801218622013-12-29T11:20:37.317-05:002013-12-29T11:20:37.317-05:00Thank you so much.Thank you so much.Jean Greyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13826037279061710386noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79861699919631405.post-33221082821173336502013-12-28T23:36:49.093-05:002013-12-28T23:36:49.093-05:00When I was newly diagnosed and in the clinical tri...When I was newly diagnosed and in the clinical trial one of the drs. told me "High functioning bipolar patients are the best actors in the world". I found that so true as I never fit in anywhere for so long.<br /><br />I had huge struggles with finding support groups that met my needs. I once contacted a group after my therapist encouraged me to see if they could meet my needs and the nurse that led it gave me quite a lecture about high-functioning not mattering. I tried to say that I meant only that my issues were different that someone well like me now and she maintained her ruffled feathers so I never went. <br /><br />Now it is hard to go for the opposite reason; it's too easy to fit in and that's hard to feel comfortable with as well. <br /><br />I hope you find something that lets you take off the actor's cloak for a bit. Wearing it is so draining and keeping the secrets is even more so. I admire you for keeping on with doing it when it is hard. I know how much energy that takes, every minute of every day.Just Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01085642883987294862noreply@blogger.com