I saw my therapist a couple of nights ago and told her that I wanted to cut down to every other week. She agreed that I was doing much better. And she said that she thought that one of the reasons I was doing so well is that I am doing yoga now.
And I think it is true, it is helping. But what got me to the yoga mat? I have been saying for years that I wanted to do it regularly. And I didn't. Every now and then I would manage to drag myself to a class, never to return. It was only after this latest round of med increases that I was able to get myself there regularly. I think that the meds helped tremendously, and I hate to admit it- because it is the two meds that I really didn't want to be on- lithium and Zyprexa.
I don't think it is only the meds. I think it is also that I have finally studied for and passed a certification exam that was hanging over me for years. It is the DBT skills that I have learned. It is having rewarding work. But I had all that in the months before the med increase, and I was still miserable and paralyzed. And then finally, I was able to get myself there. It was really hard in the beginning to get myself there in the beginning, but I could do it. And I kept going.
So I have to give the meds a little credit. As well as me, for "taking up the slack," and using the space the meds gave me to push a little further into life. Because the meds don't get you there. You still have to push.
Would you blog more about DBT and why it has helped you so much? When I was desperately seeking an IOP program 2 years ago and couldn't find one close enough a DBT program was one of the options. I can't remember but I think it had sessions I could have attended with a long drive. Both my doctors and the hospital doctor felt it wasn't the right thing for me. If I asked why I don't remember now. I know what it is more or less but the only person I've met who did it felt it was a waste of time and since she has kept right on with terribly self-destructive behaviors I think it probably was for her. You seem to have had a big difference with it and I'm curious about why it worked so well.
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