Last week I went back to taking klonopin on a regular basis. Two nights ago I upped my Zyprexa. Today I got my period. Unexpectedly, of course. And that explains a lot.
I take the pill to only get my period every 3 months because my PMS is so bad it has gotten me admitted to the hospital. Recently I haven't even been getting a period during my week "off." But I also know that if I miss a dose or two (they are tiny- I can drop them on the floor or leave them in the bottle of my pill box), then sometimes I will get a period. And I am guessing that is what has happened.
So I am letting myself take a little klonopin- that is really the drug that helped the most with PMS. Hopefully by tomorrow I can start weaning off it again. And going back down on the Zyprexa.
When I know I am getting my period- it isn't always that much easier, but at least I know what it is. This time I didn't know what was going on. I had no clue, it never crossed my mind.
My other drama today was my every six month mortality check-in at the women's imaging center. I had a mammogram and ultrasound of my left breast, so they could monitor the nodules they found previously. I really wasn't worried this time- and everything is unchanged. They said that if things are still the same in six months, they will release my from the six month checks. That will be good. I had been afraid that with so much imaging they would find a false positive something.
Isn't it great when something turns out NOT to be bipolar? These last 6 weeks (can it really be 6 weeks?) have been some of the hardest in my life but it has helped so much to know that my reaction is completely normal, even when I was crying for 5 hours or more each day and even though I still need valium to sleep. (Ok so if I weren't bipolar I wouldn't be given valium but the only reason I get it this time is that no sleeping pills work for me and it does and so its' worth weaning off it later--I figure pain meds will probably gently wean me off post-op). I've felt that way a few times when my inhalers with steroids in them made me so manic and I knew it was that, not bipolar, causing it. It was not fun but it was not something I did.
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