I need to remember this- don't go down on my Effexor. It won't hit me immediately, like lowering an antipsychotic, but eventually it will. Yesterday was still pretty hard, but today was much better. I even stayed late to do notes.
I think I have tried twice before- and one of those times it was because the doctor wanted me to- and the same outcome. Although, I did successfully get down from 600mg to 450mg. And I could still be at 10mg of Zyprexa instead of 5mg if I didn't keep trying. And I got myself off most of my klonopin myself. It is hard to know what you really need, and what you can reduce or stop. Sometimes you can't know that answer until you try.
I think I am pretty okay with my meds now. I've tried to go lower on the Zonegran twice, but it didn't work. Same thing happened- it didn't happen all at once, but after a couple of weeks I started thinking my life was over and I should be dead and how did I get here.
The only things I'd like to reduce/get rid of are ambien and klonopin, but there is no rush. I think that my doctor will raise my synthoid at me next visit as my T4 was still low- I don't know if I should care becuase I take T3 as well and my TSH is good. But I do think I have more physical energy since I have gone on the synthroid. I think that is why I didn't notice so much that my mood was dipping- my energy was better. So if he wants to go a little higher, I guess I will.
Pretty soon I have to start the light box. Usually I start on Labor Day, although I had 2 doctors who said that I should start it sooner. But I haven't been eating my lunch in my car much- I have been spending my lunches inside trying to do notes, and that isn't good for me. It is like starting SAD early.
Civilization tells me to stay inside during daylight hours, spending many of those hours sitting at a desk, doing paperwork that I hate. How has civilization advanced? We are not doing what evolution designed us to do. No wonder there is so much mental illness. In a preliterate society, it wouldn't even have mattered that I am dyslexic. There would be no such thing. Maybe in a thousand years- when we all do voice and video and no one reads anymore- there will be no such thing again.