I have a light box, but I decided to kick things up a notch an also get this- so I can do two things in the morning (and the dawn simulator has the advantage of not taking any more time out of my mornings). I don't know if the research is there with the simulators, but I don't think it can hurt.
I think I did ok today with the less Zyprexa. I felt lighter. Towards evening I did start to feel a little anxious, but that is to be anticipated. Those H1 receptors are wondering where their Zyprexa is. I took a tiny bit of klonopin- but no more than I have been doing anyway recently.
I think I have tracked down another overseas source for my Provigil. It will be $320 a month- and I don't know if that includes shipping or not. I am used to paying $100 a month. I can afford the higher price, but things will be tight. It just makes me mad. I have a high deductible plan, and I use out of network providers for my mental health needs (as there are hardly any in the area who take insurance), so I am spending thousands out of pocket every year. And then they won't cover this.
I just read that half of all psychiatrists do not accept insurance- the highest of all disciplines. Why does it have to be so hard to have a mental illness? And I am not the best person to be mailing in my receipts to my insurance company. I think one year I was so depressed I didn't even do it. But that is what my insurance company hopes will happen- that I will be less than perfect with my claims. This years I have been better about it.