I had signed up for an 8-week mindfulness based stress reduction course. I was looking forward to it, I thought it might give me some of what I needed. But it has been cancelled due to low enrollment. I am very disappointed. Unfortunately I live out in a semi-rural area these days and there aren't a lot of groups going on. I think I really need a group.
My hospital has a depression support group- I don't know if it free or paid group- but it is in the middle of the work day, so that won't work anyway. DBSA has two groups about a half hour drive away from me that I could make- if I am able to get out of work right on the dot and have no traffic, etc. Which never happens. And I have been less than impressed with the groups. I think I was spoiled- the group I went to in the city was just so good. And there were more people there who were in a similar place as I am.
I've thought of trying to create a group on meetup.com for peope with mood disorders- but I am too afraid that no one will show up and I will be left feeling depressed and lonely at whatever venue I choose. But maybe I will, eventually.
Things have been challenging recently, in part because I messed up my meds when I went out of town this weekend. I think that yesterday was the first day I started to feel like I was getting back to equilibrium. I actually left work early on Monday my headache was so bad.
But I am excited because I am going to a hand therapy conference starting on Saturday. I love going to conferences and courses. I always come back so inspired. Except for the ones that I have gone too extremely depressed when I was wiping away the tears half the time. Those were bad. But this won't be like that.