It is benign. I had my follow up appointment with the breast surgeon this morning, and it was benign. I am so relieved. The past couple of days I had started to obsess, and I was actually reading about DCIS- which is what it probably would have been if it wasn't benign. And while my surgeon had said that it wasn't that serious, very easy to treat... they typically do a lumpectomy and radiation for that. Not something I would want.
Today my mood was better- but it has been pretty bad at times recently- but then I had the insight that some of it might be low blood sugar. I need to eat carbs in the morning- sometimes I don't, like yesterday- and I just didn't think I could go on living by noon. And I take 1000mg of metformin twice a day (because of the Zyprexa, not diabetes) and my A1C is 5.1, the lowest it has ever been. I need to have more than a protein shake with 2 grams of carbs for breakfast. But that has been my lazy breakfast recently.
Last night something weird happened. I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling extremely anxious and my heart pounding. I felt fine when I went to sleep. I took a klonopin- a whole half milligram- and went back to sleep. That doesn't usually happen to me. But it had me a little foggy today.
I am watching Syfy's Ascension mini-series on demand. I just finished the second episode. I think it could have been a lot better. I think even the premise could have been a lot better. They keep saying, "Ascension is the lifeboat for humanity." Well, I thought that perhaps maybe the whole ship and crew were all simulations on a computer, and because humans had destroyed the environment, this was all that was left for humanity- to be simulations on a computer. Or maybe a plague has made the earth inhospitable- so they are living in the life boat. But by the end of the second episode, I still can't really figure out what their purpose is.
The show has way too much sex- and not enough science. Aren't there supposed to be a lot of smart, intelligent scientists on this ship?
I have one more episode to watch. And then I have to watch the finale of the Colbert Report. I will really miss him. I wonder what he will do with the late show. It will be interesting to see him "out of character."