I was visiting my brother and his family this past weekend- and I got to meet my new niece. I had a good time, and yet the depression peeked through a lot as well. But Sunday morning we spent a lot of time outdoors at an Arboretum. It was sunny. I think the company, the walking, the sun and nature did me good. Today I felt better than I have felt in months.
I also started with my new therapist today- and with my good mood found myself wondering if I had jumped the gun going back to therapy. But I like him, and he may have something new to try. Plus, as I have met my deductible for the year- it is the least of my expenses. The main thing I am giving up is time.
I thought I might feel strange with a male therapist- especially since it really hasn't worked out with the few male therapists I have seen in the past (although I don't know to what extent it was because of gender as it hasn't worked out with a lot of female therapists too). But I felt at ease with him.
But tonight I am tired. I am not walking or cleaning or doing anything productive or even fun. I think I will go to bed early and get up early. Then clean and walk before work. At least that is the plan.