I will see my psychiatrist in a couple of weeks. I'm not sure what I want to do med-wise. I think give Lunesta another go- the Ambien is not working, so I am taking klonopin with it, which makes no sense. Maybe I could just take Lunesta. I think it was stronger- although when I took it, I took 3mg, which is no longer recommended by the FDA.
I wish I could take nothing to sleep- but that hasn't been the case since I went on an MAOI. They gave me insomnia, I wound up taking something to sleep, and never broke the habit. Plus, since my crazy mania's, I am scared of insomnia now, in a way that I never used to be. I used to have a lot more tolerance for it. In fact, I used to use sleep deprivation as a way to pull myself out of a really bad mood- of course it wouldn't last, just until I next went to sleep. But it was something.
My other thoughts are switching Seroquel XR for Zyprexa. Or Lamictal for Zonegran. Or just stopping the Zonegran.
I am a little scared not to be taking an anticonvulsant. The one time in my adult life when I wasn't- I was on lithium instead- I had a seizure. They told me that was because of an interaction between two antidepressants and my levels were high. I never had another. But who knows? I take a huge dose of Effexor. I don't know if other drugs I take can lower your seizure threshold. I live somewhere where I have to drive to get anywhere. I don't want to have a seizure driving. But I don't want to take a drug I don't need to take, either. Maybe I need to talk to a neurologist. Because I don't know if I still need the Zonegran now that I am on lithium- or how low I can go if I want to prevent seizures. Should I even be worried about that.