I have been overly emotional about some things. And just had some really hard days. I am thinking about what my psychiatrist said in jest- that meds can fix everything- and wondering if meds could do more than they are doing. And wondering what there is to do for the things that meds cannot touch.
I think some of my trouble is anxiety as well as depression. But klonopin does not seem to be a good answer these days- it makes me too sleepy. If they could make a klonopin that wasn't sedating, I would be a willing addict. Two nights ago I couldn't sleep and in the morning I was so anxious that I took klonopin early in the day- and just a smidge- but got so tired I thought I'd have to go home sick. But a second cup of coffee seemed to work to get me through it, and then I was functional.
And that was good- because I had a very interesting patient in the afternoon- a stage II tendon Hunter Rod tendon reconstruction patient 2 days out from surgery. So I had to take off the surgical dressing, clean things up and do some dressing changes, and make a splint. And get him started in his home exercise program.
The weekend is going to be a lot of paperwork and preparing for an inservice. I an giving an inservice on screening our patients for cervical problems that might be causing the distal symptoms that they present with- so that we can refer to the PT's. And leading a discussion on a journal article on the treatment of compression neuropathies.
I am also spending money! I am giving in to the black Friday sales (although I have not set foot into any store). I have most of my Christmas/birthday shopping done. Our family has a lot of December birthdays. I also bought a few work tops for myself and a set of hypnosis CD''s on procrastination. It came bundled with one on "mental toughness" so I am getting that too.
I am glad it is the weekend. So much to do.