Raising the Zyprexa isn't the answer. I was felt so drugged and out of it I couldn't do anything. And I guess I gained at least a couple of pounds. I did watch some tv, was mellow- but didn't do the things I needed to do. I even slept through an appointment for a massage. I might as well be depressed.
But it has helped the depression. It really has. Maybe it will break the cycle- maybe I can go back down after my few days of more Zyprexa and the depression will be better. Maybe there will be time for the increased Cytomel to help. Otherwise I need to see my psychiatrist for some more ideas.
Or I can just try to hold out until spring. I think that is really going to help. I just have to make it until then. It is getting closer.
When I was on disability and not working, it was so much easier to make medication changes. Since I have been working is seems all I can manage is to raise things or add things- the coming off of everything and going on new things isn't possible anymore. And so I am on more and more medication.
This weekend I have been just lying around- what I really need is to exercise. I have been waiting for the nearest hiking path to be ice-free, but it hasn't been in months. I hate the gym, I hate to walk inside. I get so bored. I think that when I can walk outside I will be better. I hope.