I am having trouble concentrating recently- which is really what led to me going down on my meds. The problem is, it hasn't helped as much as I hoped. Sometimes I think it is even worse- because my mind is more distractible.
This is showing up the most with my paperwork- it wasn't too bad until I got sick and hurt my back and I haven't done a very good job with it since. I just can't get back in gear. What to do? How to get back on track?
I think I will try meditating in the morning, if only for a few minutes, before I leave for work. Maybe that will get my mind focused enough by the time I get to work. And just trying to be very mindful and present while doing my paperwork. Making sure I pull all of my charts first thing in the morning, it has to be a habit. And making sure I have my favorite pen!
Meanwhile I am wondering if my back will ever be the same- and I think not- although I have had periods of time in the past when I had a lot of back pain before. I think I am overdoing my extension exercises, and that is causing new pains to crop up- so I have had to back off some. Fortunately I am tolerating the flexion exercises pretty well. Hopefully I will be discharged from PT next week.
I was thinking today that I am so glad I made the transition to becoming a hand therapist. If I was still having to transfer max assist CVA patients on a daily basis- as I did when I worked inpatient- it would not be good. But given what I do, I can be having a pretty bad day with my back and still be able to do my job- I just watch how I do certain things and stand up a lot. If I was still doing inpatient if would be a disability.