I got on the scale this morning, and I was very frustrated. I have gained almost 10 pounds in the 3 or so months since my lithium and Zyprexa were raised. And this is despite the fact that in that time I have finally started to exercise again and to eat much healthier (lots of vegetables).
This morning I have an appointment for my physical, and I am worried that I will get lectured about my weight- although this particular doctor has never done that (yet). She did once talk to me about exercise, but I was so depressed at the time that it took every single once of energy I had to make it to work- how could I exercise?
The depression is better now, so the exercise is better. Not because my doctor or my health insurance company wants me to exercise. But the weight is not better. I know that I need to work on that next,
I suppose there are some people who do not know or are in denial that they are fat. Who do not know or are in denial that this has health consequences. And for that reason, perhaps, it is worth a conversation. But I work in healthcare, no one has to tell me these things.
A part of me says, anyone who has not been on Zyprexa for 15 years has no business talking to me about my weight. Which is ridiculous- I treat many injuries or conditions I have never personally experienced. So if someone has something useful to say, I am willing to listen.
The problem is, no doctor has ever had anything useful to tell me about my weight. All they accomplish is making me feel bad, and making me want to go off my meds.
So until they have something useful to say, I hope they will say nothing.