I am really tired and dizzy and wondering if maybe I forgot to take one of my meds this morning. Or maybe I am getting sick. Or maybe my body is still adjusting to less meds. I spent the afternoon at work feeling like I was going to pass out. I skipped out on Monday night yoga- and I haven't been in a while. Instead I am lying in bed, hoping this will pass. I am sneezing a little, maybe I'm getting a cold. I cannot believe how tired I feel.
I feel really bad that I didn't go to yoga. I gave myself all weekend to stay in after I had my wisdom tooth pulled, and I really didn't do anything physical. I needed to go. But I just feel awful. I think I have a fever.
There is one good thing I have to say about today. While I felt awful physically, and my mood wasn't too great either- I did find that my mind was sharper at work today. I was right, going up on the Zyprexa made me dumber, and going back down has helped. I have to remember this, the next time I am tempted to go back up on it again.
I did graduate school on 5mg. I passed the CHT exam on 5mg. I can function on it. Perhaps I'd do better even lower (or off of it), I don't know if I am brave enough to find out. But 7.5mg is too much for me to feel like my brain is functioning well. So it is back to 5mg for now. Maybe eventually lower. I'd like to be lower. But not now.