My doctor's office didn't call today about my lab results- and normally they will call even if everything is okay. So I still don't know if my lack of eosinophil's in the lab work is something to worry about or not. I think it is either just statistical noise- and nothing at all- or really bad. Bad as in one of my meds is doing this and I would have to stop something but I don't know which one.
I had one of those days that started out good, but as the day progressed I just didn't feel good physically and mentally- I never know quite how to explain it. And I got so tired at the end of the work day I couldn't focus at all, I was just sitting at my desk shuffling papers.
Am I sick? Just out of shape and overweight? Overmedicated? But this doesn't happen every day- just a lot of days. And I'm never very good at explaining it to doctors- I have been worked up for "fatigue" twice- and all they found was an elevated sed rate and told me that I must have had a viral infection.
But exhaustion can also be a symptom of depression. So I really don't know. I just know that I had a moment at my desk today when I was so exhausted that I thought I might be dying. And then I thought that would be a good thing- because I didn't have enough energy to go on living.
I just wish my doctor had called. If she doesn't tomorrow, I will call her. The good news for today is that my joints didn't hurt.